Beautiful isn't it? I'm here to do a short update before going shopping with Momma at cotton on later on :)

I'm so worn out today but I still managed to sit through 1h and 30 mins of math tuition. Somehow, I'm starting to like math and am trying my best to improve so that I can do well for N levels.

Sadly I didn't find the chalet resort I had in mind. So had decided to book the one near downtown. I hope and pray that it will be a success :D

Random: Everyone has their own flaws as well as shortcomings right? Most of the times, no one ask for all that so why can't you be more understanding? You yourself have flaws too so no point giving those criticism. Everyone has their own limits not only you. Drill this into your head. I bet that if someone points out your flaws, you wouldn't be happy too. Unless you're pretending that you're happy or your brain is malfunctioning. 

Before you start to give your unnecessary comments, you should think twice and place yourself in that someone's shoes. Judging others isn't gonna get you anywhere man so wake up and don't be so childish in your bloody thinking!

Get this straight. It doesn't mean that no one voice out means that you can continue judging and giving stupid comments ok. One day you'll get your desserts :) And not forgetting retribution as well. Hopefully it wouldn't be living hell for you cos I'm hoping that it would be. And when it is living hell, don't blame others but yourself.

I admit that I also judge others, who don't? But I can swear that I don't judge as much as you. Maybe you judge and criticize people to console yourself. Oh well, I guess that it's low-self-esteem.

So here is 6 words specially just for you, stop being such a judgemental freak!

*Judge somemore and see where can all these get you all right? I'll be really glad if you can finally get some sense into your brain.

Haha it makes sense true? Not forgetting that revenge is sweet :) Luckily for me, I don't have to take revenge on that ass cos there will definitely be others. Yay!!

Note to self: I won't forget how you guys treat me in the past. Every single day, I'm praying that every single one of you would get your retribution. And I'll be laughing away to see how pathetic you guys are :) Although I'm not displaying any hatred right now, it does not mean that I've forgotten everything. Yes, I can somehow forgive but I will not forget.

Soon, Hallowen 2 is showing in cinemas, I'm so gonna watch it. You guys should go check the trailer out cos it's really eerie and cold blooded!!!! *Gasp* I bet Lishin will surely want to watch it!!

I'm going to cook maggi alr and then maybe prepare to go northpoint :) Maybe I will change my mind cos I'm quite tired today :(

I won't be updating any time soon. Most probably after N levels as I'm gonna be packed with assessment books and wksheets.

Will be back most probably Oct 12 or earlier ya.

Love you guys, ciao~

3:13 PM

Hello sweeties. I know it's late now but I felt like updating :) I planned to shop alone at Northpoint this afternoon but my mom suggested to watch The Ugly Truth. 

Prepared and headed down to Cotton On. Quarrelled with Momma so we just headed to the cinema with her boyf and Chubby. The movie was really awesome :D Really worth watching! I want to catch Fame next week :(

After that headed to mac. Saw Tim after so long! Oh man, I miss a lot of my church cliques. Totally lost contact alr T.T Still I remember the times we spent in the past :)

This is to that bamboo. I wonder if he reads my blog but I believe that some ass would tell him :) 

I remember us saying that we would still be friends right? I guess we're both really stubborn asses. And I got to admit that my ego is quite big and I guess yours is too. But suit yourself :) I just hope that you're really happy since we had been quarreling almost everyday when we were contacting.

Gosh I'm searching for the chalet now and it's making me so frustrated!!!! I really hope that we can enjoy ourselves after N levels. 

Btw, I found out more about that Donkey. Guess what? He really has a screwed up mind cos he got a fetish for white girls. Walao I really pity his girlf. He should really go bleach himself and fondle with himself. Kinky right? Well what do you expect from a screwed up guy? Also, he really flirts a lot. Oh well, Donkey you really suck to the core :D

Time passes so fast. N levels is in 2 weeks time and I still haven't decide on going to ITE or if I have the chance, go up to sec 5. Stress stress stress!!!!!

I planned my timetable for next whole week. And that would be study everyday. I gotta memorize Hist, buck up on my chem, bio and worse is MATH! I really hope that I will do well for N.

Ok enough of studies cos my head is really exploding from all those stressful stuffs. 

Random: Some guys are nothing but jerks. Boasting about their feelings and never know their limits. Just shut the f up and stop your nonsense cos you're making me hate guys even more. You don't have to think whether I'm referring to you cos it's you dumb ass.

An advice for both you and me. Fate likes to play a fool and will torture some one so much. And no matter how much I pray, fate isn't giving in. But, what's yours will eventually be yours. If you and that special someone ain't meant to be, there isn't any point in fighting for it. Because in the end, you'll lose that special one. Everything is pre-destinated but somehow you're able to change things.

Now I'm not praying for time to turn back but for you to be happy with everything. At times, memories of you would just pop up in my mind. I thought I could really give up and forget every single thing but the images is still so vivid. I did try to change things but nothing seems to be working. You only pay attention to her and not me. Though things are not as bleak as the past, I rather you just lead your life and I lead mine.

Maybe if you didn't suddenly 'reappear', I could forget you by now. 1 week more and it would be 6 months boy. I bet you cannot understand the torment you made me go through as you were practically leading a normal life all that time. I tried to make you understand but you just wouldn't listen to me but instead you listened to that control freak.

Yeah I know I'm not good enough for you no matter how hard I try to change. You're just so special and I'm just so ordinary that we ain't possible. Well people may mock at you cos you're unique and maybe many girls are interested in you. You have lots of choices that you can choose from so what for choose someone like me right?

I chose not to confess cos it's gonna worsen things. And I don't know if you know that I'm referring to you. Even if you knew, so what? Things aren't going to change. Ok maybe it would change as in everything would worsen. I cherished every single happy moments you had spent with me and I'm just trying to forget the unhappy ones.

I just want things to be like the past. Is it so difficult?

I'm gonna twit and chat in msn then off to sleep.

Goodnight sweethearts :) Ciao~

11:59 AM

Hello sweeties! Guess what? Prelims are finally over!!! But sadly, N levels is in 2 weeks time :( Which is way too awful cos we cannot enjoy! Booooo.

Still, it's ok. May be going town with girlf(s) and I can't wait for this Sat. I want to catch Fame so badly! I bet it's gonna be a nice show.

Anyway, Chubby came back on Monday night. And he told me about his genting trip. Seriously, I missed out alot and I regretted on not joining them.

Basically, he bloody sat in a LIMO! That's on my wishlist k! TO SIT IN A LIMO!! I bet no one in S'pore is able to afford it. Even the President cos I don't see him in a limo.

It's quite sucky that I'm not a caucasian nor am I born in the US or somewhere that I'll be blonde, blue eyed, tall? Obviously, nothing is gonna change. I'm still a pathetic asian girl.

Enough of that.

I didn't manage to cab down to the hospital that day. Chubby caught the night flight and I was working the next day. Which is kinda sad cos I bet that she's gonna be a sunshine :) She has double eyelid ok! Envious :( 

About today's Dnt paper. It was quite difficult. I didn't really had the time to study last night. But hopefully I will be able to pass :D 

Momma also lectured me. Which was quite suckish as she was nagging. Always saying I don't share my troubles with her. I doubt she would understand. Usually, our conversation would go like this:

Me: I'm having problems.

Momma: What is it about?

Me: Friends.

Momma: Friends come and go.

*the end*

Which part is helping me in any way? None. That is one main reason why I don't like sharing my troubles with her. And when I don't, she blames me. Ah, grownups!!

Now, I'm craving for marshmallows! Those with chocolate fillings in it. Yum!! I guess I'm going to get it very soon. 

Chubby offered to cook garlic egg for me :D But I had to reject his kind offer cos I'm controlling my appetite T.T

For the past few days, I swear my appetite was growing rapidly! And I could see that fat ass me in the mirror. But I'll be able to adjust back, soon enough.

Gonna watch Dance Flick with Chubby later on. Base on the trailer, it seems funny. Maybe we'll be laughing our ass out later on?

I planned to take a nap but was too engrossed with Csi just now. Watched 2 disc straight and it was really worth watching.

Out of randomness. Q: Are friends or your boyf/girlf more important?

Damn, I want to travel to Paris during the hols!!!

I remember my trip to Taiwan 2 years ago. It was freezing T.T The advantage is that it's quite energy saving. Because shops like 7 eleven don't switch on their air-con as the place was so cold. And it wasn't even snowing.

Imagine going to places with the 4 seasons....

Despite the fact that I may freeze to death, I love winter the most. During winter, everyone enjoy snowball fights and building cute snow mans. And also lying on the snow bed and staring into the sky. Isn't it just, romantic and awesome!? 

When will I get to go see snow!? Maybe I've seen it before when I was a kid. But I would have forgotten it by now as I don't remember traveling to countries when I was young. 

As bad as that can be.

To worsen everything, things aren't getting any better at all. Which includes family, school, friends and all that kinda crap almost everyone is facing now. Anyone has any advices?

Life is just full of shit. God, explain to me again on why am I born in this harsh world?

Ciao sweethearts~

5:03 PM

Hello sweeties! I brought good news! My babysis has been delivered at 12noon sharp! Most probably gonna go down to Geneagle hospital. Dad told me that her nose bridge isn't as high as his awwww. 

Ohyes I went to nokia.com and saw this freaking pretty phone, X6. Even the name sounds cool right? And it's coming soon!!! Too bad it's touch screen ): If not I'll surely get it when it launches. But I may want it cos it's pretty and cool!

Or maybe I'm still gotta hunt for other Nokia phones.

N97 mini is also cute, touch screen and coming soon. Yay, 6760 is not touch screen and coming soon also!! Man I hope that I can save till it's enough to get one of them!

I'm starving right now. But quite lazy to cook something for myself. AND my charmee noodles finish alr T.T Have to wait for Momma to come back and ask her to buy more. I've been eating alot lately.

See I'm getting way fatter cos my appetite has grown huge! Which I don't like cos this means that I have to spend more on food.

Which I definitely can't cos I'm saving money for a new phone and BOF disc.

I'm working tmr, which I regretted requesting cos I dislike that place. I swear that I'm so gonna look for another job after N levels!!!!!

Decided to go for the chalet cos it may be the last time we get to see each other :) 

I've no idea wheather to go down to the hospital cos I'm kinda tired. Or maybe I should just stay at home and watch my cd(s). 

Seriously I'm rotting at home and listening to music. Also chatting with HH. Plan to watch Dance Flick at home when Chubby gets back home later on. 

Fame is gonna be showing next fri, 25th sept and I'm so gonna catch it!!

Dad ask me to go down. So, I'm gonna wait for Chubby to be back from Genting then cab down to the hospital. Hopefully I won't fall asleep cos I'm alr yawning while typing.

Most probably gonna bring photos back :D Will update tonight if I'm free.

Ciao sweethearts.

12:35 PM

Hey sweeties. I just woke up from my sleep and eventually found the time to update my blog :) Actually I planned to change my blog skin but nothing seems to suit to my liking. Shall change it some other time haha.

Ytd wasn't a good day k, it was so sucky. Firstly met Lishin and headed to Iluma. Mygawd, there wasn't anything to shop. Regretted going there zz. Afterwhich, we trained down to Somerset and had Pastamania. 

I think I ate too much of their cheese. The cheese bottle was supposingly full but after I ate, there was about half left? Haha I'm a cheese lover. 

After eating, bought filet from OCK. This guy approached us for some charity thingy so Lishin and me donated 10bucks and she got a balloon! Haha ok lame.

Reached Fareast and walked around. Lishin spilled her sweet drink in her bag. So we headed to the washroom and clean up. 

She chased me with her balloon. Crazy anot!? Haha nonsensical but fun.

Woah Singapore is super boring so we left there at about 9plus. Took the rebounce train and reached Yishun at 10plus. 

1 pathetic pic: 

Ok, I found out something about someone. Thus, here is a short msg dedicated to him.

OHMY, Dad just told me my babysis is gonna be delivered tmr and it will be induce :D See, I finally got a babysis!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Means I can pamper her with clothes and make up. When she grows up, we can have girls time. 

But our age gap is gonna be one concern :( Still I'm gonna love her!

Currently chatting with Hh. I'm still thinking wheather to go for the chalet or not. Ok maybe I will. Hopefullly we're gonna have hella lots of fun :D

Tmr I'm going to see my babysis at the hospital if she's gonna be delivered. I'm so gonna take pics!!!!! :) 

Suddenly I feel so tired from everything. Family, school, exams, friends and life. Everything is so bleak. Can someone teach me how to handle all these at once? 

For now I'm gonna concentrate on N levels. 

I'll update soon. Ciao sweethearts!

3:47 PM

I'm still waiting,
for your text,
for the past,
for you.  
Here's your reply;
10.

2:49 PM

Hey people! I woke up because Chubby was noisy. Plus it was so dark. The wind was blowing so fiercely at my windows. Now I'm home alone, and i don't dare to go back to sleep T.T

But nvm, shall just update :) Ok, starting with ytd.. It was a pure waste of my time at school. The walk was making me perspire like hella!

The concert wasn't any better. But I enjoyed the part when the 4T1 guys performed. Talented~

Went to mac with Jiemin and Fel. Was waiting for mcvalue lunch. Super long sia-.- But finally, it was 12p.m. I ordered mcspicy. After finishing, as usual, I wanted to shit. Sucky-.-

Bused back home with Fel. Reach home, shit, watch cd then fell asleep. For no reason, I woke up after an hour or so. Tried to sleep back again, but can't. Gave up from forcing myself to sleep.

Got ready to meet Brenda to study at mac. She prepared longer than me yet she reached there first. Haha! But I came after awhile..

Attempted maths paper2. Bartley Sec's paper can make my head burst. I did about 3questions, 2wrong -.- So, I gave up. And gave Bio a shot. Mygawd, it wasn't any better..

I've to really buck up now. Gonna start memorizing my SS either tmr or thursday. Hopefully, my brain can absorb everything :)

Decided to walk home. Wanted to enjoy the breeze :) Reached home at about 12midnight.. Was really tired that I could doze off while I was in the showers.

Watch tv and off to sleep at 2plus.

I woke up at 12plus just now. Most probably gonna sleep again. Chubby is coming back soon, i think. I'm still thinking of what to have for lunch :/

He's offering to help me buy lunch. So kind, once in a blue moon. Haha! K, I'm being lame.

Good news for me, I'm having sore throat, flu and a stomachache :D And i'm wrapped like a popiah now. Freezing, brrrrr!

I think i'm gonna watch CSI :) Sadly, last disc :( Hopefully, Momma will be gg to JB soon enough to get me season8 :D

Ciao~


The month of April was a lovely and unlucky month.
You were there for me, almost everytime.
But everyone knows that good things would,
eventually come to an end.
While reading through our chat logs,
I really hoped that time would stop there.
Was it really you behind the computer screen?
After your return, you only contacted me for 6days.
All of a sudden, everything just stopped.
That was when I woke up from my sweet dream.
And it turned into nightmare.
A nightmare I couldn't wake up from,
no matter how much i try.

12:46 PM