I can understand that my blog is very entertaining but if you wanna complain, don't even bother to read cos it's making you sound so ridiculously contradicting and it makes me laugh so hard that my stomach hurts now HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Thanks for the joke it's very funny and F.Y.I I'm speaking with sarcasm just in case you didn't notice :)

I'm totally drained as I just came back from swimming with Fel. Yay I'm a little tanned now.

Fel is pro as she can really swim. Luckily we only swam for 1 hour plus before we went to eat lunch at mac. Yes ice cream again hoo~

Tonight night swimming is canceled all because Zj has beach volleyball training oh well there will be a next time. He thinks I'm mad at him haha but why should I be? Crazy fellow.

Cow, I realized that both guys and girls have something in common and that is:

Girls says "Guys will always be guys."

Guys says "Girls are all the same."

and..

girls and guys says "I thought he/she was the one."

OR

"You will find someone better than me out there." (hinting for a break-up)

Both girls and guys may debate over this issue and it will never ever end cos they would say, "Try putting yourself in my shoes." which is impossible what.

Although there are people who say they understand and all that crap, actually they don't. If girls and guys can understand one another and able to put themselves in one another shoes, couples wouldn't be quarreling over minor issues and there wouldn't be break-up(s) in this world. 

Which is unlikely as there are still a lot of people quarreling and breaking up. Sheesh I bet you couldn't agree more. 

Chum don't worry. Me will always be here for ya~

Ok I'm very very very tired. I think I shall take a short nap now and am going out with Chum tmr!!!!! So...

I'm off to bed right now. Ciao~

4:59 PM

I don't feel a thing. How? Your words ain't affecting me so try harder ok?

About privating my blog, yeah I will do so but only after you post about me 1 more time. When I do so, I hope that you ain't gonna cry cos I know you love to read my blog but so what?

Maybe I don't have to private my blog all I have to do is remove my archives and only display 1 post on my blog. 

You miss it your problem.

This is such a good idea I shall give it a serious thought.

You guys may think I'm evil but I'm not. That fuckhead really pissed me off! BIG TIME!!!!

Ok enough of that idiotic loser. 

My chum is coming to my place later on to watch cd yay!

Last night, I met Zj and co again. Played poker and challenge Wm on the swing again. But this time, we were playing instead of seeing who's winning or losing. It's really fun!! 

Chatted with Qinyi and he wanna intro me his job haha. Seems fun plus there got a lot of caucasians. Suntec what haha!

Bused home with Jon at about 10 plus.

Now I agree 2 times more on the saying, "Don't judge a book by it's cover." 

Tmr we're going night swimming!!! Excited man. Hopefully that the swimming complex would still be opened.

Oh ya sadly Halloween 2 is M18 :'( But the movie that I really wanna watch is, My sister's keeper. Iqah told me that the story is really sad and she cried. And the reviews said that movie is awesome and really a tearjerker.

Maybe will drag Chum to watch it with me since I'm not going for the Halloween night with them anymore.

Ciao~

2:09 PM

Last night I met Zj, Hh, Sean and Wm to slack at Khatib :) Hh was very cold as he told those super lame jokes again haha! But it was entertaining. He complaint that he was hungry so we accompanied him to eat dinner.

Then we played poker. Soon I got bored of it and saw a swing in plain sight muhahaha! It's been ages since I played on it ok unhappy childhood. I challenged Hh and Wm to see who can swing higher. Both of their stamina sucks maybe because they're passive smokers.

Zj said he wanted to walk with me to dt mac but instead he ask me to take bus. Zz busted man but luckily he accompanied me to wait for the bus if not I'll smack him lol. 

Met Iqah and Hafiq and then home at 12 plus.

I crave for subway, roti prata and cheesecake. I must faster recover so I can eat all those food. Now I only can eat porridge damn! But it's ok :) as I know that I will get better in a blink of an eye.

And if pay comes in on the 30th, I should be able to join them for Halloween yay!! Why isn't there any 'trick or treat' in S'pore!? :( Just imagine us banging on strangers' doors and asking them for treats. I think they would give a dumbfounded face haha so weird right?

Oh yeah I didn't get to watch Spongebob squarepants last night :'( I miss it so many times alr. Nvm I shall watch it from next Monday onwards!!!!!

Seriously I was pissed off but after gossiping with Lishin, I've cooled down so much and I'm enjoying every part of it. 

You're nothing but a piece of shithead :) Also another loser and I really hope that you will get into IMH cos you're a bloody psychopath and you have an unstable mind. Oh yes pls don't be jealous of me ok :) Cos it's obvious that you are awwwwwww. I don't even have to put in effort to get your attention. You're so pathetic :D 

You're always a good example of a extremely low self esteem person :)

Ciao~

2:27 PM

I'm somehow suffering right now. My tongue is so swollen that I can't even see my tonsils anymore :( That's how bad it is.

Chubby just bought lunch for me, porridge. He has been constantly reminding me to drink more iced water and making sure that I'm ok. Isn't he a sweetie? :)

I couldn't even eat anything ytd. All I consume was water and milk T.T Sufian was an ass!!! He keep asking me to talk and knowing that I have difficulties talking. I think Eddie thought I had an ulcer haha.

Now I can't even finish my porridge T.T I think Chubby is going to finish it for me. I'm going to eat icecream!!!!! Should have ask him to buy hotfudge for me just now :l But Momma bought some and it's in the freezer right now :D

Yummy :D I doubt I'm gonna lose weight so I've to control as I still need to lose 3 more kg to reach my ideal weight. Wish me luck ok!!!! :)

I want to go for a picnic, swimming to get sunburn and also ice skating. Anyone interested???

Should I dye my hair or just leave it the way it is? Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm.......

I'm quite tired and frustrated but I've music to cheer me up :D And to make everything better, there is 

tonight *grins*

Lastly, I want to thank him for everything that he did, whether it's good or bad;

Thanks for entering my life. 

Thanks for always playing with me.

Thanks for letting me plug your hand/leg hair.

Thanks for letting me slap you.

Thanks for letting me draw on you.

Thanks for wanting to accompany me to eat.

Thanks for offering to buy food for me when I complaint that I'm hungry.

Thanks for those advices you gave me when I was facing difficulties.

Thanks for accompanying me to the movies.

Thanks for sending me home.

Thanks for sending me to the bustop.

Thanks for msging me almost the whole day despite your busy schedule.

Thanks for saying that I'm not fat.

Thanks for letting me give you a morning call that day.

Thanks for taking the initiative sometimes and msg me.

Thanks for all those sweet stuffs you once told me.

Thanks for the company when I was alone.

Thanks for the cold jokes you would tell me.

Thanks for giving into me.

Thanks for listening to him and not contacting me.

Thanks for making me cry for you.

Thanks for giving me false hopes.

Thanks for all those memories you left.

Thanks for leaving, coming back and again, vanishing into thin air..

All I really need to do right now is really be determined to let go of every single thing including you, the memories and the past. It's gonna be real tough but I know I'll let go bit by bit. 

Ciao~

2:55 PM

I'm super exhausted right now but I manage to login to blogger and update my blog :) Yay!

These few days had been really fun and enjoyable with the company of them. We had been relaxing at work since Tues :) 

Ytd was the funniest day I remember spending with them. Zj was super hyper till he was so funny and cold at the same time. 

Played poker and joked around. Was making a fool out of ourselves in the train. Wm was so sexaye omg I really laughed my ass out.

Had dinner with Zj, Wm, Jon and Lishin at s11. We got bored and so we decided to play a game involving eating chilli! Damn it was so spicy that Jon had to buy for me water :l 

Just now David had decided on who will be staying on for 1 more week. Unluckily me and Lishin wasn't continuing and it means no more income :( I've not earn enough!!!!!

Hopefully there would be slots at Tiong Bahru *prays*

Had brunch with them at West Coast Plaza. Subway!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

I'm thinking way too far ahead omg. Imma nutcase *laughs hysterically*

I will be excited whenever I see caucasians. Maybe I'm crazy about marrying one haha!!! But there was so many of them!! :(

After that went to play Photo Hunt with Hh, Wm, Sj and Lishin. Almost beat the high score ok!!!!! The highest we scored was about 320k and the high score was 460k. Maybe we'll get a chance to play it tgt the next time.

They went back to work while me and Lishin went to Northpoint and walk around for a short while before coming home.

I'm really so tired that I couldn't even walk to mac to check my schedule. 

Thanks a million guys I really enjoyed myself so much that I totally forgot all my troubles... 

A few nights ago, I passed by your webpage and saw your post. I just want to get this point across, no one is right or wrong. And fret not, I've alr f off and deleted your contact like you did.

Guys would forever be guys and girls would forever be girls. Basically both genders won't be able to understand each other. 

But why are there people out there still happily married? This world has never been fair, not even once.

Somehow I really can't bring myself to hate someone unless that person is really a bitch. (btw, if you somehow think that I was referring to you on my oct 19 post, I wasn't)

Strangers or friends it's fine by me cos it's your liberty not mine. Since you've decided I'll respect it and really hope you've alr moved on. I know you can :) Or maybe you alr did.

4:31 PM

15 Oct was graduation day. Took quite a number of pictures but the photos has not been transfered into my computer yet. I'll upload it soon :)

Today was a torturing day. I only remembered losing my way at Upp Bukit Timah with Chubby as we had to go to Hillside Condo for my bby sister's first month celebration. After that we went to Sushi Tei for dinner. Yay finally some Japanese food!! :D

I was dead tired when I got home but somehow I got the energy to blog. Why? Cos that low-self-esteem asshole motivated me to blog haha!

I know you read my blog quite often so you know that I'm referring to you and so you should feel friggin' honored right now, yeah? 

You should take the plunge and go to hell seriously.

Someone should really let you know that you have lots of flaws so that you wouldn't be so proud of yourself and critcizing people w/o using your brains and looking at yourself.

Continue being a judgemental freak as I can see your pathetic loser face at the end and as I said, it would be living hell for you.

And I'm really loving it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Let me tell you that you aren't any better in any sense at all.

Whatever you're trying to do isn't working according to your plan. So don't be ridiculous and thinking that you can spite me pls.

Such a swine and pain in the ass!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But it's typical of you. MORONIC!!!!!!!

Enough of you, for now.

Speaking of her, I'm meeting her to get our shoes tmr. Hoo I'm somehow excited! Because of my shoes, I had to suffer on Friday T.T It was unbearable!

I really have to thank the guys for introducing this job :) It's kinda relaxing and sometimes I would want to fall asleep. 

Luckily Hh &co. would accompany and entertain me. Not forgetting Lishin looking so OL on Friday with her stupid cold jokes.

And that idiotic Jon has no license in pushing the whatever trolley they call. If it hadn't been for Zj, I would have fallen down.

He also tried to show off but everyone knows that there wouldn't be a good outcome. 

Yes he humilated himself as usual. 

I hope that everday would go smoothly at work, with them and no more further conflicts as I like it the way it is now :) 

Silence,

and I still hate you as much don't fret.

I'm gonna turn in now,

night everyone!

Ciao~

2:47 AM

N levels are finally over. But I'm not as happy and excited as I thought I would be. I'm super disappointed with myself.

All my hard work just went down the drain. I studied so hard for science and dnt yet it was so badly done.

Dnt was so damn hard that I left almost the whole section A blank. We never even learn exploded view yet it came out, sigh...

But it's finally over, so I'll just have to relax and enjoy now :)

Gasp*

I went to catch Cloudy with a chance of meatball 3D with Lishin ytd! It was a good show :) Super uber cute and hilarious. Next move is, SORORITY ROW!!!!! 

Hallowen 2 is showing on 22nd october. Hopefully it's not m18 T.T I want to watch it! I wonder if that bamboo is gonna watch with me or not haha.

I want to watch My sister's keeper too. So many movies to watch right? 

Somebody misplace my final destination disc and I haven't even watch yet. I hope that it would suddenly reappear.

Last night, I stumbled upon this particular guy's web page. I called Lishin immediately and told her whatever that was written in his blog. She was laughing away but I'm quite annoyed with him. He is really nothing but a loser. Even his friends around him got pissed off. Yet he thinks whatever he's doing is fair and cool or whatso. Why am I so unlucky to know someone like him?

Well, that annoying pest has double standards. I doubt he understands so I shall do a bit of explanation :) I shall give one simple example.

E.g. He doesn't like blue so he keep on criticizing the colour. All of a sudden, he likes blue. Then he ask people not to criticize it. Since this explanation is so damn simple, you should understand :) I'll just wish you the very best! (yeah right) 

Btw, now is alr 2009. Pls don't be childish to and act like you're a gangster or something. It's really really really very irritating.

Ok I can't switch on my damn phone cos the keypad went crazy. Don't know if servicing is gonna help as my phone can't read my memory card also. Sigh sigh sigh! Shan't fret about this first.

I'm feeling so frustrated now but luckily Jesse and Justin's songs are cheering me up a little.

Gonna finish my Csi season 2 soon yes! But one of the disc can't be read. Shall ask Chubby to help me later on.

I woke up at 3 plus coming 4 and cooked maggi for him and myself. Currently blogging but I'm feeling so tired. I think I'll take a nap after I'm done.. 

Fatigue.

I find myself so stupid to go and sms you. But I should thank you instead. Because of your reply, I realize that I should really let go and forget you totally. 

Remembering you isn't doing me any good. All I remember is you telling me that I'm not good enough.

That's it. The end.

Wait, was there even once upon a time? 

Nope.

But guess what?

I'm so gonna migrate soon :) Going to the states is a big risk as I may grow fatter. So, Momma said Australia. Hopefully, Sydney!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Finally there's a glimpse of hope that I could get out of this country filled with nothing but jerks and competitions in society.

Will update soon. Ciao~

4:48 PM

Hey sweethearts! I'm getting bored so I'm gonna do an update :) As you guys can see, I've changed my blogskin to something much more better. 

Today is an awfully boring day :( Friday blues? Basically, I woke up at 10.30a.m just to go for dnt remedial. Met Lishin and show her some photos. A good example of ...... 

Hh told me that dnt would be much more easier than prelims and instead, guess what? Last year's paper was difficult until I think I only can score at most, 25/70. Pathetic I know but I really suck at dnt.

I regretted taking it but it's alr the last year. I'm so gonna study until I get everything into my head.

Actually I was suppose to go down to Clementi to visit my dad and see my bby sister but had to cancel this arrangement as Chubby has church. So I'll be heading down on Sunday instead.

I've no choice but to spend my whole Saturday at home. I'll be studying for dnt and make sure that I can get at least, 37/70 :) But, I'm not confident at all though..

Back to how my day was. After dnt, I head home and plan to watch my csi. But Chubby's friends was there. One of them broke the ceiling's light and I thought that Chubby was dead as my mom would surely flare up. But she didn't, phew* 

I rotted and used the laptop and change my blogskin, chat with Hh, played jigsaw and uno with him. 

I got hungry so I ate 3 slices of bread and shared charmee with Chubby :) After that, we sat down and watch csi. It was so nice yet he can fall asleep.. I only manage to watch one disc. Gonna continue tmr after my self-study, of course :)

Now there is a tiny ant crawling on my laptop screen but I'm not as psycho as that Qinyi. He wouldn't even spare a life of an innocent insect, sicko. He even kill lizards!! They so cute right anot?

Ok, now I sound like a sicko or something haha.

Oh yes, I came across a book this afternoon talking about people apologizing for crying. But I've never heard anyone saying, "Sorry for crying." Maybe it's only referring to caucasians. Afterall, what am I suppose to expect from us Singaporeans?

I really want to immigrate to somewhere filled with caucasians! God, pls turn me into a blond. (obviously asking for the impossible but hey, god work miracles right?)

I told that bamboo about that fucking guy and he also agrees that he's an idiot! Hoo great minds think alike!!!!!!! Didn't expect that he's able to cheer me up without knowing it. Still show me ufo and a dancer and throw water balloon!!! Awwww so sweet right haha! But he say I short T.T

What-an-ass!

Actually I wanted to post Wm's photos but I accidentally exit blogger. Luckily I got save :) Smart huh! Cos I learn from my lessons unlike some bitches, opps? (woah far fetched but I like)

But now I'm too lazy to post any.

I'm gonna watch tv with Chubby and then turn in alr. 

A reminder for YOU:

Will update soon with pictures of my bby sis hopefully,

Ciao sweethearts!

11:36 PM

Hey sweeties. I'm back earlier than expected :) 1 more paper to go then N levels is gonna be over. Don't worry bitches, I've got quite a number of things to say. 

Shit blogger my whole post was deleted damn it and now I got to retype. What the hella! But nvm I shall emphasis on the stuffs I wanna say. Next time I must remember to save alr T.T

Firstly, Maths was a killer. I swear that it's not possible for me to go to sec 5 alr. And I didn't really have the time to focus on science as I was busy memorizing my damn history. Shit everything.

Secondly, I'm going back to work. Surprisingly, I don't miss anyone at all haha! Ok maybe some :)

Thirdly, Graduation Day is approaching. Poignant, I'll really miss you guys.

Fourthly, I hate you so much that I want to make a voodoo doll and use not needles but nails and a huge hammer to hammer it into your bloody heart. Pls go and bang the bloody wall and get into a coma so that I don't have to see your friggin' face! Take note, I used the word hate. I remember saying that I don't hate anyone. But well, you're an exception now :) Feel honoured sucker. 

You think only you don't want to see me? VICE VERSA LA BABY! If you didn't treat me like a spare, maybe things wouldn't have to be in this state. It's your fault so don't portray me as the evil bitch ok. Seriously, what the fuck is wrong with you?!

I don't understand why I'd meet someone like you. Is it a blessing in disguise? Woah I doubt it cos right now, I really regret knowing you. Boast and exaggerate somemore man :) I hope some girls out there would teach you a lesson that you won't ever forget for your rest of your life!

I admit that I do miss you. BUT you suck more so, I still hate you a lot. I hope that I won't see you ever again. And pls, don't suddenly pop out of nowhere. Sick and tired of all this rubbish that you're giving me.

I hope that I can get my brain washed and get rid of your name. God, please please please don't make us cross paths so that it would save the both of us from the torment of seeing each other.

Main point; After so many advices from my love ones, I've finally decided to let go of him :) Outsiders can really get a clearer picture huh. Come to think of it, I'm really stupid enough to wait for him for 6 months. What's even more stupid is that, I know that I'm not going to stand a chance cos I ain't good enough for him yet I still go and wait. Pure dumbness.

Maybe I won't totally forget you, but I'd remember you as someone I cherished so much. Thanks for those memories blockhead. I really appreciate it and don't forget me. You still owe me something, remember :)

Hh told me he wants to be a clown! Hilarious right? Ok, maybe it's not that funny. I (l) his dp :D and he's still the best. He's gonna read my blog later so here's a sentence for you man!

I got stupid photos of him, Wm and Qy but I'm too lazy to post it. Maybe one at a time in the next post ya! Tune in~

1 last paper and BOOYA! N level is out of my head and enjoy baby!

Love ya sweeties XOXO!

7:43 PM